
Surgery more than four months away- what could I learn, experience, do that would divert me from worrying about it?
Step 1- I found myself on a search for God and the meaning of life. I talked with the Monsignor of the local Catholic Church (I was raised Catholic); I spent half an hour with him and told him I was ready to die if it was time. Father Tom Reilly said, “I think God has a larger plan for you-let’s pray for that.” Nancy and I spent a lot of time talking about God. She was working hard to get me spiritually ready for surgery.
Step 2-I talked with friends who practiced a very deep faith in God. They encouraged me to have faith, hope, and a positive attitude.
Step 3-I read, watched, and listened to a collection of books, CD’s and DVD’s that broadened my knowledge of Eastern meditation, thought, and religion. I began to meditate on a daily basis. I was more at peace with myself and the world than I had ever been.

I began to think about the support group I wanted in Gainesville during the surgery. Family and best friends rounded out the list. I wrote each a letter in advance letting them know how much I appreciated them giving their time to come to FL to be with us. My ending paragraph was: "With my love army in tow, I believe I’ll be successful in the surgery and that more will be expected of me regarding reaching out to others. If something should happen, know that I have had a great life and that I expect each of you to love one another."
I was reminded by my daughter of Shelby’s words in “Steel Magnolias”-… “I’d rather have thirty minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special.”
The SurgeriesThe “wonder boys’, Drs. Michael Okun and Kelley Foote were better in every way than I could have ever imagined. I would give a testimonial for them ‘at the drop of the hat’. They were so skilled, so dedicated, and so caring that the two surgeries were not nearly what I thought they’d be.


The next surgery consisted of bringing the wires under the skin and attaching them to a stimulator that was put into my chest. We stayed a week and they programmed my stimulator for the first time.
They continued to program my stimulator over a period of six months and I was ‘good to go.’ And go, we did. DBS provided a great boost to my life. I began doing things easier and better and happier than I had in years.
We spent time traveling and thoroughly enjoying each day. We found a church that we loved and became very active members. As the disease progressed, however, I began to slow down and we wondered what our next steps would be.
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